I feel wonderful!

“You are the closest I will ever come to magic.” 

This is how I feel. 
You maybe very tiny for now. 
Barely a dot inside me.
But know that I love you unconditionally and beyond words. 
I will protect you. 
I will care for you. 
You will always have a shoulder to cry on. 
You will always have an ear that will listen to you. 
I will dry your tears. 
I will play silly games with you. 
You will always have someone you can talk with. 
You will always have someone who will support you. 
I will come running to you whenever you shout my name (even if you don't) 
I will pamper you like no other. 
You will not only have a mother but a confidant too. 
You will always have me as your best friend. 
I will make you feel secure.
I will chase your fears away. 
This list will go on and go on..
We just started our beautiful journey together.. 
Never forget how loved you are by Mom and Dad. 

“You (my love) is the closest I will ever come to magic.” 

LOVE is...

“Love is . . . Being happy for the other person when they are happy, being sad for the person when they are sad, being together in good times, and being together in bad times.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF STRENGTH.

Love is . . . Being honest with yourself at all times, being honest with the other person at all times, telling, listening, respecting the truth, and never pretending.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF REALITY.

Love is . . . An understanding so complete that you feel as if you are a part of the other person, accepting the other person just the way they are, and not trying to change them to be something else.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF UNITY.

Love is . . . The freedom to pursue your own desires while sharing your experiences with the other person, the growth of one individual alongside of and together with the growth of another individual.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF SUCCESS.

Love is . . . The excitement of planning things together, the excitement of doing things together.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF THE FUTURE.

Love is . . . The fury of the storm, the calm in the rainbow.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF PASSION.

Love is . . . Giving and taking in a daily situation, being patient with each other's needs and desires.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF SHARING.

Love is . . . Knowing that the other person will always be with you regardless of what happens, missing the other person when they are away but remaining near in heart at all times.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE OF SECURITY.

LOVE IS . . . THE SOURCE OF LIFE!”

By: Susan Polis Schutz

Sharing an excerpt from Cecelia Ahern's book: Where Rainbows End 

"Our life is made up of time. Our days are measured in hours, our pay measured by those hours, our knowledge in measured by years. We grab a quick few minutes in our busy day to have a coffee break. We rush back to our desks, we watch the clock, we live by appointments. And yet time eventually runs out and you wonder in your heart of hearts if those seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years and decades were being spent the best way they possible could."

Love. The rare kind.

“Love.
Not the kind you see in the movies or hear about on the radio.
The real kind.
The kind that gets beaten down and bloody, yet perseveres.
The kind that hopes even when hope seems foolish.
The kind that can forgives. The kind that believes in healing.
The kind that can sit in silence and feel renewed.
The real kind of love.
It's rare and we have it.”

I miss you every single day and I long to be back in your arms again. 

Simply put, I just really miss you Sweetie. 

Word for 2013

I always start the year with a word to live by. That word for this year will be simplicity. Last year, I have been a very materialistic woman. I'm not proud of that and I intend to do something about it this year. No more purchase of shoes and designers bags because I hardly use most of them. Instead of buying this things, I could have purchase several house appliances or save them. I have a depleted savings account that needs some work too. 

So this year will be a year of simplicity and savings :) 

Thank you 2012, Hello 2013

Among the many holidays there is, New Year is my favorite one. After the year that it has been... the high and the lows, the ups and down...the new year brings hope, chances and endless possibilities. It's a whole new beginning to do things all over again, only this time you hope to be wiser in your decisions and reap better results. 

So cheers to the possibilities that this year will bring to all us! 

Life...

REPOST: FRIDAY, JULY 13, 2012

“Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.” 

― Mother Teresa

Worth the Wait

REpost: FRIDAY, FEBRUARY 11, 2011

I remember waking up with his arms around me - peaceful, content, happy and loved. This, I said to myself, is the moment that I will tell our kids later on. This are the moments when I feel so alive and simply grateful that my man can just hold me and we are truly happy. 

I received a puzzling news today and it made me paused and reflect at my own actions. There are two things I realized, first; He who puts your welfare first over his is a man you will meet once in a lifetime. I am truly grateful that I am respected and loved by a selfless man. Second, I have always been and will be his forever. When I am ready, the wait will be worth it and it will be sweeter and by then I would wake up with his arms around me, smiling big and hopeful for the future that we both build.  

H, my heart is filled with so much love for you.

29th of January

REPOST TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 1, 2011

Our television has been acting up all because it is old already and needs to be replaced sometime soon. But when I plugged it last weekend just for the heck of it, it worked! My sister was ecstatic that dear TV worked and she asked me to go pick up some DVD while she clean the house. I gladly give in to her request and bought some new DVD movies.

 The movies that I bought are the following:

   1. The Black Swan (Natalie Portman)
   2. Mean Girls 2 (Meaghan Jette Martin)
   3. The Tourist (Angelina Jolie and Johnny Depp)
   4. The Matador (Peirce Brosnan)
   5. Love and Other Drug (Anne Hathaway and Jake Gyllenhaal)
   6. Season of the Witch (Nicholas Cage)

I already watched Black Swan the week before (courtesy of C's DVD) but I bought it nonetheless for the benefit of my sister. We watched together Mean Girls 2 and the Tourist and after that I went to bed to catch some goodnight sleep.

The next day, I went out to do some shopping. I badly needed a new pair of jeans since the ones that I have are already old and H willingly pampered me (big grin). The normal cost of my jeans are like $18-20 but to my surprise, the mall was having a sale so I was able to bought 2 jeans! Much to my delight of course. I was able to save big time and being the thrift shopper that I am, the purchase made me happier.

Monday, S and I agreed to have lunch and Love tag along with us. We ended up having Chinese since we always have McDonald's for lunch. But before I met up with them, I went to the mall and pick up some books. I was checking the books of Nora Roberts (who is slowly becoming my favorite author) but it was pricey. I don't feel like indulging since I'm pretty sure I can just finished the book fast. So instead of 1 Nora Robert book, I traded it with 2 Michael Crichton books, The Jurassic Park and The Lost World at almost the same cost. Another smart buy for me =D

Thankful at 24

REPOST TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 1, 2011

No matter how tough life may get I never forget to be thankful for the fact that I am healthy, I have great friends who will stand by me, for having a supportive family and for H who loves me unconditionally.

At 24, I can only be thankful for the-not-so-always-beautiful-days. I look the future with so much enthusiasm and hope that things will be better than they are today and no matter what life will throw in my way, I will always have wonderful people around me who will help me see through whatever difficulties and challenges I may have.

Life is indeed good and thank you for the Big Man above whose wisdom and love has shown brightly in my life for always.

Happy 24th Birthday to me :)

22th of January: Movie Marathon

REPOST: TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 1, 2011

I spend the weekend with H and watching several movies (DVD's are courtesy of Cookie). It has some indie films, French and Spanish and those has sexual innuendo which I can recommend for a movie review with Psychology students since it touches several aspects of life. 

I remember struggling with my movie reviews back in college simply because I only knew a handful of movies that can qualify as such and if I have access to this movies at those times, I could write all my movie reviews for one semester at one sitting.

I also watch several movies depicting the life of American youth, their struggles to find their place in a much complex world (Rachel Getting Married, Dare, Bully). It tackles issues such as drugs, bullying and peer pressure. I also watched a thought provoking film titled, The Chosen One which speaks of innate goodness of man and having faith. Charlie St. Cloud is an interesting movie. It revolves around the death of Sam, Charlie's brother and how he struggled moving on from that family tragedy. 

Then there are the feel good films; When in Rome, the animated movie, The Guardian of Ga'Hoole, a history film about Young Victoria and how she come to power, choose her husband and become one of the good leaders of her time despite her youth. All which I watched with my sister. 

What a weekend right? But of course the best thing about it is spending time talking, hugging, kissing and simply having fun with H. There is no one dull moment with him =).

16th of January

REPOST: MONDAY, JANUARY 17, 2011

It was raining again for most part of the day last weekend so I spent the time curling in bed and finishing the last two chapters of the book by Nora Roberts (Brazen Virtue). 

I also spend a good amount of time watching basketball game, Game 6 of the Beermen's against their sister team, Ginebra. The game was close and I kinda woke up the entire house when I screamed after a 3-pointer from Alex Cabagnot that gave them the lead. 

The team showed a lot of poised during the last 2 minutes of the game, defending well and anticipating every opponents move and eventually won. So my SMB are going to the finals and their first game will only be an hour from where I am. I don't know if I'm going or not just yet. Crossing my finger =D

Bags I Love

REPOST: MONDAY, JANUARY 17, 2011

Allow me to share to you one of the things I'm passionate about as a woman. If some women are crazy about shoes (which I am a little of) mine would be bags! I don't need a lot to fill my closet, don't get me wrong. I only need a handful to make me happy =D. 

My current obsession are these two. The first one I've been saving for already and probably will get one by summer. The second one has a long way to go since it is triple the price of the first that I wanted. 

The first one is a Longchamp Le Pliage navy blue and the second is by Kate Spade.

Longchamp Le Pliage

Kate Spade

As you can see both are not leather. The first one is made up of nylon while the other is made up of denim fabric. Leather bags wear and tear is fast and thus requires a certain amount of care. These two are not so much. The only thing you have to be careful with the Kate Spade bag is the rain while the other you can use rain or shine as it is nylon.

Gone Are The Days

REPOST: FRIDAY, JANUARY 14, 2011

Gone are the days when all we have to worry is our assignments, term papers and upcoming exam. Gone are the days when all we have to worry is where to eat for lunch. Gone are the days when everything was simple and are made simple for you by parents, teachers and friends.

The dad of one my best friends had an unfortunate accident and while riding the cab from the hospital, S and I can't help but sigh and think about the old simple days and come to terms with the fact that indeed we have all grow up. We are now adults with responsibilities on our shoulder and there are actually people depending on us. We know how far we have gone yet the realization can be overwhelming at times and you can only sit and hope that the future will be good to you.

Walk Away While You Can

REPOST: WEDNESDAY, JANUARY 12, 2011

It is painful enough for your love to be not reciprocated worst being lied to. That cuts like a knife for sure although I haven't personally experienced being cheated on. 

But I'm still having a hard time understanding why some women can't walk away when all the signs have been right under their nose from the very start. If your partner is a pathological liar why would you keep coming back? 

Respect is as important to faith and love in a relationship. If you can sense that the man  you are having conversation with doesn't have an ounce of respect to you then I suggest  you look somewhere else. That relationship is doomed and it will only be a matter of time till you suffocate each other with the doubts that you have at the back of your head.

Second, if being disrespectful to you is not enough would you not walk away while you can if the guy has a terrible temper and starts yelling and screaming when the mood suits him? The kind who lash at you when he is mad and blame you after for every foolish thing he did while at the peak of his emotion? Whoa. That sounds like a big trouble to me. 

True it's human nature to be mad. It is a natural emotion that one feels when provoke but it is very immature to blame your partner afterwards. It is your emotion, own it and as such, also own the consequences that comes after.

Women should look for this signs early on in the relationship. Don't wish for the guy to change for you. It may happen but that is a long shot and better yet, don't count on it. Put your energy somewhere else rather than cultivating feelings for someone who will make you feel bad about yourself. Who is an emotional vampire. It is seriously not worth your precious time.

First Weekend of January

REPOST: MONDAY, JANUARY 10, 2011

I had a stressful Thursday last week. H got into an accident and he dislocated his arm. I was so worried of him, good thing he has no broken bones and will be out of sling after 2 weeks. But even that is not comforting to know. I know how hard it will be for him to do errands even the most mundane one. And again, I can only hope that at this time I was with him to make him feel a bit better.

Even if he was on sling, we spend a good amount of time together. We played games and it was so much fun. It is safe to say now that I do better with foreign history but not I suck big time at Philippine history quizzes (I know, shame on me lol). If I don't do well on foreign questions at least I have an excuse but boy, I don't have any single excuse for not knowing how many Philippine provinces are there (Answer: 79). But we had fun and that is all that matter. 

I was also able to finish the book, Sweet Revenge by Nora Roberts. I was a couple of chapters away last Friday and had to finished it right away when I got home from work, Saturday morning. I  have started  reading new one just this morning,  Brazen Virtue by the same author. Thank you to my friend, Aira, for letting me lend the books. 

I had a very good weekend all in all. I was productive to say the least =)

What Shall I Do?

REPOST: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

I was wondering what shall I do when I get home from work today. Turns out there is a lot to do and too little time to finish everything. I started digging out my cabinet and fixed my clothes that are out of place. I started putting away blouses that are too small for me already. My cabinet seemed full only because there are a couple of things that shouldn't be there anymore (hehe). I should have put them away a long time ago. 

I also started reading a new book by Nora Roberts, Sweet Revenge. I just finished reading a novel last Sunday and already starting a new one (big grin). I am so proud of myself. I am reading more these days which I didn't do previously. I guess, I'm starting my year right after all. I just need to get  back to exercise to shed off some weights soon.

The Word for 2011

REPost: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

Every start of the year, I pick out a word or two that will be my guide all throughout. This year, I have chosen the word 'save'. Just a month ago, I have talked how bad I was financially but before the year end, I was able to gain some leverage. 

It is a must that I save and not depend on H (my hubby) everytime I am in trouble. He is always willing to lend a hand and he always look out for me and my family but it still good if I can take care of myself at least. He is well aware of the responsibility I have in my shoulder but I cannot be totally dependent with him since he is also saving for our life together. 

So, for the first quarter of the year I must not indulge in shopping new bags, shoes or clothes. Time to discipline myself and look out for my expenses. Time to live on a budget and not splurge even if I can. Until such a time that I feel confident about my finances, no purchases should be made. Good luck to me!

The Year It Has Been, 2010

REPost: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

I thought I was going to get hitched last year. I thought I was going to moved to a far away land. I thought I was going to get pregnant. I thought I was going to build a family, start a new life with the man I love. But I thought wrong. It was just, "I' thought. See the operative word is "I". I know he wants the same thing that I do. We daydream of our days together, of our lives together but I often wonder when will be all that realized. 

It's been 2 years and though we have been very happy I couldn't keep but ask for more. It's just my nature I guess. I've been dying to build family and be with him for good but it's like I've been put on a halt. I guess, this is life teaching me a lesson that I will not always get what I want when I want. So, for a change I'll put behind the talks of settling down and babies and what not this year. He will come around when he feels it is the right time. For the time being and for a change this year, I'm gonna go out and have some fun.

Pardon my French

Repost: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

I don't know what with this girl. She thinks it is nice and classy to be sleeping with one man to another. Since the time I met her, she incessantly talks about the men in her life.Well either that or the brands of her expensive shoes, branded bags, designer clothes and what not. I sometimes humor myself  and tell her that she should label the guys she is sleeping with as Mr. Gucci, Mr. Louis Vuitton or Mr. Prada. 

I mean how low can you get? This men are married and some have kids yet you willingly subject yourself as a mistress and an accomplice for cheating on their wives and you call it forbidden love? Forbidden my ass. The fact stands that you know from the very start their status in life. You could have walked away but that was never the case. I guess it was never in you to do a right thing. 

There is no class in this act, never will. And I can only  hope you snap out of this before things get messy. I pity you honestly but you are too old not to know the difference of what is wrong from what is not. This are deliberate actions and you have full knowledge of things that you are doing. At the end of the day, I think you also dreamed of more than being a ho of someone. Unless you do something about it, you will be just that, a ho.