Thursday, February 26, 2009

Ash Wednesday

Ash Wednesday is the first day of the Lent and the faithful goes to church to have an ash placed in their forehead as a sign of repentance. Every Lent season I see to it that I would give up something as my personal sacrifice. Catholics are not supposed to eat meat during Fridays (high day of sacrifice) but as another form of abstinence, we are encourage to give up something that we love doing for this season. We are reminded to practice moderation in whatever activity that we do and avoid indulging.

For this season, I'm lessening my television time. It's something that I'm really fond of and if there is a sacrifice that I can make that is worthy to be called as a sacrifice, that would be it. No basketball games for me (huhuhu) for the time being.

It's the perfect time to pause and reflect and pray. Have a blessed Lent season everyone!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Hearts Day

I came across this quote somewhere and I just simply love it.

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Happy Hearts Day everyone! :)

When a Girl...



I'm sharing this e-mail sent to me by Janrae. I'm not a fan of chain e-mails but this one makes perfect sense. Just read and tell me what you think after, hehe.

When a GIRL is quiet ....
millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ...
she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ...
she is wondering how long you will be around..

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine 'after a few seconds .....
she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you...
she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' ..
she means it.

When a GIRL lays on your chest ..
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday...
she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ....
no one in this world can miss you more than
that.

Life only comes around once so make sure to spend it with the right person

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot

who calls you back when you hang up on him

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep

Wait for the guy who ...... kisses your forehead

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats

Who holds your hand in front of his friends

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Friday, February 13, 2009

Seeing through me

My mom often complains that I'm a bit cold, that my logic always get the better of me. She says that I always want to get the upper hand on most things (true), that I'm "sigurista" (I don't know exactly what's the perfect English equivalent word), that I only took risk when it's a win-win situation so that I can secure my victory in the end. To her actually, I'm a coward...claiming that I'm a risk taker when in fact no assurance scares me like hell.

Ahh, mothers. Why are they so good in seeing right through people. One look, they know already what's running through your mind. Just when I thought I'm doing the right thing, she will point out that I got it all wrong. I just love her wisdom but at times, I resent it too. She allows me to make my own decisions but boy, when you allow her to talk and give her piece on the matter, you can only shake your head and agree on what she is saying (that's what I feel with my mother). She seldom speaks up her mind but when she does, brace yourself because she will tell you the very things that you are avoiding to hear.

So yes Ma. It's about time to change my approach. After all, I know that you will always be there for me no matter what. The countdown begins.

Bag of Tricks

Since Monday I wasn't the usual all perky, enthusiastic Jane. I'm having this low-spirit, not to mention I'm cranky. I hate it when I'm like these, the people around me doesn't deserve that (Thanks to Joanna and Ron's constant bickering and teasing to each other, I am able to laugh). I know that they are used with me being a brat (they are tolerating me anyway) but if I'm cranky that is something different.

They have this disclaimer when they talk to me; "Jane, are you still cranky? If not, can I asked you something?" (I'm so bad, sigh*). They all go to me when they have questions in their evaluation and me being a cranky biatch isn't helping the team at all. I'm so bad, I know. I'll hibernate for a week first. I'm positive that's what I need to clear my mind.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Monday blues

I wake up early today excited of the week ahead. I talk to Anton first then go to L'ecole to met up with Janrae and Bloom. I spend the entire morning with Janrae, going to the salon and checking some nearby boutiques. We also went to the mall, spend some few good minutes there. We parted ways almost noon time; Bloom and Janrae went to another mall while I went to the bank and roam around downtown to look for furnitures.

I was home by two in the afternoon, watch the second half of the game of Portland Trailblazer against New York Knicks (Knicks lost by a point). At around four, I was all ready to take a nap since I wasn't exactly sleepy. I get up to get ready to work by eight but I wasn't as excited like in the morning. In fact, I really don't want to go to work. This is one of those days that I hate to be at work for reasons I don't know. When I arrive, I just stared blankly at my computer.

Ahhhhh, hate this. These are the times that I really miss Jack. If he is here, I can sweet talk him of going out somewhere. If he noticed that I'm quiet, he'll be in my side all noisy and funny and what not. And it's Monday for crying out loud. Of all days (Sigh).

Friday, February 6, 2009

Mixed Stuff

The Fun Part:

It was the 70th birthday of one of my grandmother yesterday and her kids throw a big party for her as part of their thanksgiving for all the great years they had with her. My father did not come as usual, he is not a fan of lavish parties so I accompanied Mama.

Meeting most of your relatives can be overwhelming. As usual, the lola and lolo's are asking where's my father and I would just smile and say, you know him (just phone him and ask him for a beer or two, he like that better). While the tito and tita's are asking for a detailed story of how are you all these months, how's work, how's my lovelife, how's everybody here and there (can you imagine, interrogation galore in other words). And the cousins (mostly my second cousins), I love seeing them. Everytime I see them, they are all getting taller than me, hehe. By the end of the night, when I sneak out of the party because I have my work waiting, I felt that my energy dwindle with all the talking and the saying hello to everyone. But I was very happy to see them.

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The Not-so-fun Part:

I was running late for work so it was impractical for Papa to drive me home so that I can change and drive me back to work again. So, I went to work all dress up last night. Boy, the moment I reached my station, I kick off my damn heels because my feet is so red and Ron said, they are as red as tomatoes (poor feet). It badly needs a massage but I need to attend a meeting short after I arrived and one of the trainers asked me to give a QA talk later that shift. So my foot massage needs to wait because I have to work with my evaluations in between meetings. Thankfully, I got slippers at the office that I can change to or else, I would have opted to do barefoot in the office (I don't care if I'm not giving justice to my dress but my feet aches). No blisters- thankfully, but point is, I'm not just used with heels, they are not for me really.

Moral of the story though that I got from wearing heels: There are things in life that you just have to do or bear with eventhough they may seem unpleasant, not-so-attractive, or in this case painful. Given that not all things are pleasant, you just have to do certain things the hard way because it's the only way to do it. I need to wear that heels because I have to (although I was tempted to wear slippers really, but that would be so hello; an outfit mismatch). I don't know if that makes sense, but that's it. The most valuable lessons are learned the hard way. (The beauty of the not-so-fun part is that you always learn something from it -whatcha think?).

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The Sweet Part:

I went to work all dress up and the reaction of the people, "You know what Jane, you should dress like that more often". Of course I said thank you to all the compliments that they said but at the same time, arguing with them that I like wearing my jeans and tank tops and my slippers. I feel much comfortable with them rather than wearing dresses.

I even joke and told them that I just prefer to look like a trash but if I choose too, I can be Ms.All Girly or Ms.Lady-like all the time (and they all said, that's not what we meant and you don't look like trash --- I was just exaggerating actually). But it's really sweet, they all encourage me to wear a dress once in a while and I told them to count this instance as "once" and "a while" will be quite sometime.

Special mention to Josette for driving me home, for sparing me to walk with heels and for giving justice to my outfit. That's the beauty when your working with a bunch of moms, they always look out for you.

Back to the drawing board

It was doing some form of accounting yesterday before I went to bed and to my surprise, my expenses for this month has gone up considerably. My oh my. I was pretty confident that I was on track financially but when I go through it, I just shook my head in disbelief. True, I have made some withdrawals from my savings account but I sure did not notice that I withdraw 5 times for this month alone. Worst, I don't even know where I used the money.

Was I going out a lot - don't think so (Sure, I had dinner with my college friends but I wasn't spending much). Did I shop this month? - I don't believe so either, I don't hit the mall that often and I am a one-time big-time shopper (It means, when I shop, it's scheduled and I did shop last December already so it's too early to schedule another shopping spree soon). Was it because of my birthday?- Definitely not, my parents prepared a simple dinner and they're the ones who spend on it (that means, I still owe the girls a lunch or dinner when they are free already). I was sure that my head was aching before I went to bed.

So, for this month I need to save - save big time. I cannot afford to splurge, not until I'm done with my financial project. I'm back to the drawing board. It was pay day yesterday and I set aside a good chunk of it as my savings (I'm going to do some banking on Monday again). Definitely no withdrawals for this month. I have disciplined myself before so I can definitely do it again.