My hands are full

I got the chance to sit down and have dinner tonight with the people from AIM (Asian Institute of Management) and some of their graduates. It pioneered management education in Asia and it's one of the best business school in this region.

Part of my long term plan is to get an MBA degree but I don't want to take it in Bacolod. I want to take it somewhere else and I have some schools in mind and now, AIM is another option I can freely take.

Decisions. Choices. Sometimes having few options is just a bliss. When your hands are full, it's also tough to call the shot. I have a few good months to think about which direction to take. I'm positive though that no matter what it is, it will do me good.

Pinoy-Negrense-Bacoleños

We Filipinos truly have an interesting culture. I can't help but smile of the simplest of things that others may find amusing (inspired with my countless conversation with Anton about our culture differences).

I'm sharing you the list that I have made so far (I will add some more if I remember something). This is a mixture of Pinoy, Negrense, Bacoleños culture.

1. We eat with our bare hands (Pinoy thing really)
   
2. We have rice on breakfast (Tapsilog, Tocilog, Cornsilog and all those stuff)
3. Fish is cook with their heads on
   
4. Means of transportation include - buses, jeepneys, tricycles (trikes as what Anton would call it -they obviously don't have it there)
   
5. Bus door is usually open unless you are in an air-conditioned one (but of course, you defeat the purpose of riding in an air-conditioned bus and you will just open the door).
6. In Negros alone, there are a number of dialects. Bacolod people speak differently (not just the varying accent, but the vocabulary itself) from let's say people in San Carlos (which is just 3 and half hours away from us if you travel by bus and maybe 90-100 km away).
   
7. Pinoy loves to eat - it's amazing how we can come up with such weird mixture of ingredients into something delish. And cooking style vary from one region to the other - Bicolanos loves spicy food, Pampangeños loves to use vinegar in their cuisine, Bacoleños like it when its kind of sweet (must be influence of the many sugar central we have here).
8. Street foods or what we call turo-turo. We have popcorn, cotton candy (schools especially), hotcakes, fishballs, tempura, peanuts (salt or sugar coated), shakes, ice scrumble (crashed iced with flavors-different from shake, trust me), dirty icecream, kwek-kwek (quail egg), balut, and a lot more.
   
9. Pizza delivery comes with hot sauce and ketchup.
   
10. We like "sawsawan" - patis (soy sauce), vinegar and kalamansi (lime). We also have "sinamak" for those people who love it spicy (vinegar basically with lots of spices).
11. Taxi's only exist in Bacolod - go to the next city, there's none. You can go around everywhere with tricycles.
12. When we give out direction, instead of giving the specifics, (ex: straight ahead then turn right) we used our mouth to point the direction.
13. Our spaghetti has hotdogs (Go to McDonalds and then Jolibee, order their spaghetti meal and you know what I'm talking about - hehe).
    
14. We are vain when it comes to our hair. We love our hair to be neat and in it's place all the time (That's why we love going to the salon, not just to have our hair cut or colored but to have it rebond and all).
15. More on hair vanity - American women blow dry their hair before leaving the house, us - we leave the house with our hair still wet.
    

Another Year of Boundless Possibilities

Yes, there's no staying at 21; just like you can never stay as a kid forever.

Ahhhh, I'm now 22. Time sure flies so fast and much to the amazement of my parents. It was not long ago when they were holding me in their arms; fragile, vulnerable and dependent, and although I'm still fragile, vulnerable and dependent in some ways, I myself is amaze of the person I am today.

It is indeed another year of boundless possibilities and I'm holding to that thought with much enthusiasm and optimitism. Another year to grow, to be better. A chance to fulfill some aspirations (just some, hehe - you can't do it all). Another year to live life to its fullest.

True, life is not always fair but it has always been good to me. So bring it on!

A burger a day

A burger a day makes Jane happy. Talk about simple joys. :)

Yes, Mark just uplifted my low spirit when he said that he will buy us burgers - the best burger in town I must say, hehe.

Manong, you are the best Manong in the world, tomorrow - burger again please.

That's the price you have to pay if I'm going to go to that Executive Monitoring. Deal?.

Let Me Sulk

Malou once said to me, it is the people who you truly love that can hurt you the most. I was nodding in agreement to her but it sure did not hit me that it would be this bad and painful.

For a long time now, I have not cried so much like I cried yesterday. The words keep echoing in my head and no matter how I tried to push it away and shrug it off, I simply can't, after all the person involved is very dear to me.

Yes, there maybe a couple of times that I have disappointed you but it never occurred to me the severity of such things until I have read your thoughts on it. Yes, I understand where you are coming but it still hurts and pains me to know that we are in such a situation...that even though we are talking we still have some unresolved issues somewhere.

So I guess, it's my turn to use your words - let me sulk and wallow for the time being.

Hail to the Ambiguous Drama Princess

I know you are not going to read this soon but I don't want to let this day pass without me answering some of your doubts about our friendship. And it's okay if you are not yet ready to read this, but when you are in doubt - you know where to look for answers. It is here.

I don't want to speak in behalf of the other girls, they have their reasons as well - I'll just discuss my thoughts and view on the matter. You can even say that this is an attempt to justify and rationalize my actions and maybe even late for a thorough explanation but for whatever purpose it may serve, I want to get this off my chest. But as always, you will get a no holds barred response from me, you don't need some bulls*** (and I was never really good at them). I don't know where to start so I'll just lift some words you highlighted and start from there.

*** I am very much disappointed with them
I understand if you are disappointed with me. I've been making decisions what have stirred various reactions from the people around me - and obviously, you are one of them. But I just hope you will give me that unconditional support and understanding, just like how I have understood your decisions and have supported and love you through it all. I'm telling you, I won't make a habit out of it but life is not getting easy, the stakes are higher and I know I have to stumble once in a while and I hope you'll be there to make me smile when that happens.

*** I hate to admit that I cannot simply accept their weaknesses because I have always looked up to them
One of my greatest fear in life is failing and disappointing the people that I love, you being one of them. I have not failed miserably in my life and no one failed me so terribly either but I have set the bar high enough for me to dread falling short. But yes, I'm not perfect. I do have my fair share of weaknesses that although you hardly see them, they are there. I'm just good in dealing with them on my own that it seems to you everything in me are all good and perfect. They aren't. I don't want to walk ahead of you, I want you to walk with me, side by side. That way you will not look up on me anymore and maybe you will learn to accept that Jane - though seem perfect and has all the things going right in her life - is very much imperfect and weak.

*** I wonder if my girls still exist
Yes, we still do exist. I still exist. We may not be sharing endless hours together but I'm just around. At times, I also wonder what's going on with the other girls since they are not here but I find solace in the fact that, I know sometime in their busy days and in their sleepless nights, they also wish that we are all together. True, we have gone on our separate ways since we have set different goals for ourselves and as much as I want to remain in the comforts of school and have you around, I just know that we can't stay that way forever. But I'm assuring you, I'm definitely here. And oh, we did not share a shallow friendship and it pains me if you are going to think that way again. I have open my heart and soul with you girls, if you think that I was faking it, through all those years then go ahead - tell it to my face that we have is shallow.

I have always took pride in our friendship and many have envied it. It's funny how my high school friends and even yours, including our teachers would look for either one of the girls if they see us not complete. Yes, we were inseparable back then. Partners in crime. Sisters. I hope you will always remember that, you are not just a friend, you are one my bestfriend whom I consider and treat like a sister. Love you for always no matter where the path of life leads and takes me.

Bits and Pieces (Part III)

*** Gaza Conflict
More than a thousand casualty has been reported to have died and suffered since the conflict in Gaza erupted. What's worst is that most of them were children who are either sleeping in their bedroom or having classes in school when one of the Israeli missiles hit them. With the unilateral ceasefire, I hope this war will be over soon. But even then, the damage has been done already; parents grieving over the death of their children and children wondering what future holds for them with no parents around. Sometimes, I wish that I could stay as a kid, a time when you don't have to worry about anything since all your needs are well provided for, but I just realize even kids are not safe anymore in fact, they are increasingly fragile and very vulnerable to this cruel world. There's no safe place anymore :(

*** Australian Open
Australian Open has already started last Monday. Yeppi! First round is almost over and the big names joining this tournament have already played and no big upset yet. Tomorrow, second round will kick off and there will be some interesting games.

*** Walking Contradiction
I am a walking contradiction and I won't even dare justify myself, I won't even try. There's too much going on and too little explanation. A picture of complexity.

*** My Beermen - What happened?
3rd game of the Semi finals of San Miguel Beermen and Talk N' Text. It was a close game but Talk N' Text managed to pull off a win by 2 points. Grrr. They lead the series now, 2-1. The last 4 remaining teams have what it takes to be a champion but the match up with SMB and TnT is a must watch one. They are the two most strongest needless to say, the most star-studded team in the league. I just hope SMB goes to the finals this year.

*** Working Through Pain
I have worked through pain last night. For some reason I have stomach spasms/stomach ache - I don't know exactly what I'm feeling. I had to go to the clinic at around 2 in the morning so that I can rest and I sleep through it the entire day. I still am experiencing it but it's tolerable and I feel better now than last night.

Guys like you don't fall for girls like ME -

Guys like you don't fall for girls like ME - a self impose restrictions to one's self; or in this case, a reason one may used to stop the inevitable.

What made you so sure that he doesn't like you? That he won't fall for you? What are the basis of such an assumption? Did he tell you straight up that you are not his kind of girl? These are some of the questions that I like you to answer. And don't give me that reason puhhleaseeee - "I just know that I'm not his type of girl". What made you say and conclude that???

If he is such a smart ass just like you're telling me, then it would be no surprise if he is playing some mind games on you. Stuff like: one day you're talking incessantly with each other, the next day he won't even bother to say hi (seen this before and this is quite effective and I think it's working with you also); play Mr. I-could-not-care-less, I-don't-notice-you but would check on you if you have fever or give that passing complement that you look pretty today (just wait, he will notice that new hairstyle too but just delaying it).

Here, I'm giving you tips on how to caught his attention (hopefully this works):

• Try to smile at him - Don't give him that lust smile okay (lol); give him a genuine friendly smile (a smile that implies, I'm so happy to see you today).
  
• I have known you to be great in giving those witty comebacks - try some on him. "You have turn my brain into some gray lump useless matter", if I remember your statement right. C'mon, you can do better than just wallow on the thought that he is so intelligent and so what not that you are almost willing to give up without a fight. Excuse such as language command (Tagalog specifically) will not justify it. Use Mandarin on him then. My point is, will you at least try.
  
• Lastly, be proactive. Initiate a conversation if given the chance. A simple hi or how are you today will not hurt.

I do understand your fears and sure, this maybe even out of your character but you know what, if he's not making you sleep and all and you're so convinced that this has gone out of hands (that you need to end this craziness of yours) then, I strongly suggest take you matters in your hands. Be proactive. But then again I know already what you are going to tell me - Mom, I can't do it.

Quote from Les Brown

"Someone's opinion of you does not have to become your reality."

For the sake of Compliance

I don't know how you guys feel about meetings, but me, I resent it big time. I'm not talking about quick huddles or a 15-minute update... I'm referring to a 2-hour meeting and the people in it can't seem to make up there mind and just going on circles and circles. Everyone are questioning each other (which is good for the sake of argument and discussion) but it would be a relief if they will also find it in their heart to concede and give way to one another. If only they will listen closely and not think of this as some sort of competition that the one with the most questions win.

Ahhhhh.... Me, I'm selectively listening. I'm reading and replying to emails, blogging (just like what I'm doing now) and reading other blogs. Anything at all that would be make me productive in the next 2-hours. You may asked me why I am still attending this darn meeting if I hate it so much - for the sake of compliance. I wonder if my supervisor would issue me an IR (for insubordination) if I don't attend this meeting... hmmmm...I think he won't. So let me drop the line now. They can argue all they want, I'm out of here.

Gram Slam Season

January 19, marks the start of the first Gram Slam on the year - The Australian Open. All eyes will be on the defending champs Maria Sharapova and Novac Djokovich.

Last Sunday, I watch four great tennis matches. The game of Ana Ivanonich Vs. Maria Sharapova (Finals of Australian Open 2008); the five setter game of Marcos Baghdatis and David Nabaldian; the exhilarating game of Andy Roddick and Roger Federrer in 2006 and that crushing loss of Federrer to Rafael Nadal last Wimbledon Season.

Maria reached the Australian Open finals twice already but failed to capture the Grand Slam twice also and in 2008, after being down to Anna by a game in the first set, she bounce back and won the title in style.

The Baghdatis and Nabaldian match on the otherhand is a match that I will never forget. Talk about heart and never-say-die-attitude, Marcos has it. He was down two sets already, yet never gave up. Fought for every point he can get. He then won the next two sets. In the deciding set, he was again down by 2 games to love but he was just to resilient and been wanting to win that he was once again able to get back on the game and ultimately won that match. Whew! You won't stand really if you are watching this match (like I did).

The third game I watch, was a classic game. Andy was just superb in this match. He was prepared in all aspect of the game but Roger was just too good for him. After the match, Andy can only encapsulate this match by saying, "I throw the kitchen sink at him, but he went to the bathroom and got his tub". I think that says it. He can't simply match to Roger's power.

The last game is a heartbreaker. As much as I like wactching Rafa play, I'm a big fan of Roger. This match lasted for almost 5 hours, the longest match I have ever watched. And I was devastated seeing Roger lost but then again, maybe it is somebody else's turn to win.

So to all tennis enthusiasts, in a matter of one week - we are again glued to our sit. Can't wait.

Every Girl's Guide To Heartache

I recently bought books for me and my sisters to read. They are teenagers and they are asking me a lot of questions lately so I decided to find books that they can read and would make them understand the things they are going through. This books are written by Filipino authors so they can really relate to the characters (Filipino psyche).

The one I recently finish is authored by Marla Miniano - Every Girl's Guide to Heartache. And I'm sharing the 10 rules she enumerates so that any big sister out there who have a lil sis whose going through this, let them read this - this might be useful. But this is not limited to teens really, anybody who is currently suffering from a heartache can learn something out of this book.

Here goes the 10 rules:

1. Find comfort in your family. - Self explanatory.
2. It's okay to NOT be okay. - Common mistake we all have when we are broken hearted is that we pretend that we are okay even if we are not. News flash, it's okay to admit that you are not okay in fact you will feel so much better if you accept this truth. Also, people around you must realize that they should allow you to grieve, cry and what not. Comments such as: it is his loss, you'll find someone better and the like are so unsolicited.
3. Know that despite your heartbreak, the world revolves without you - and does not revolve around you. - Life goes on even if you don't want to live anymore. It won't wait till you are okay (it won't wait for you, period).
4. Cut off all forms of communication with the Ex. - Common mistake I should say that most girls (and myself is no exception) commits. If you want to moved on in the truest essence of moving on, cut all forms of communication. Don't be silly and think that you can be friends again when she traded you, betrayed you and what not behind your back. Sooo fairytale. Talk to him again if you are really sure you can handle it.
5. Realize that anger is a waste of time. - You are allowed to be angry at certain point but being angry forever to that person will get you nowhere. Not only it is a waste of time but also a waste of energy. Instead of being angry and planning for that vengeance why not invest your energy in putting up the pieces together. That way you will be more productive.
6. Distract yourself. - Breakup can be messy, so distract yourself. Go out with friends and do the things you want to do, may it be shopping or anything at all that will distract you, but no getting wasted in a party included -that is not the distraction I'm referring here, just to be clear on that one. Healthy ways not destructive ones.
7. Go easy on the next guy. - Ahhh, don't rush it when you are not ready. Don't look for Mr. Rebound. Don't make that futile mistake.
8. Watch out for the aftershock. Got really nothing to say on this one.
9. Know that you are not alone. - Yep, find solace in the knowledge that you are not alone. That somewhere in this Milky Way, somebody also just broke up with the love of her life.
10. Just live. - Just live because life isn't fair but it is still good. Life shouldn't be a bed of roses because that would be boring and pains such as a heartaches are one of those things that makes this life one hell of a ride. Life does not end when circumstances change, when relationship fails, when people leave, when hearts break, when someone stops loving you or when someone refuses to love you in the first place.

An interesting read really. Funny, cute and really suited for teens. Now my sisters can read them since I'm done reading it. Wink**

License to Wed

I was supposed to watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind but I ended up watching License to Wed. It's a romantic comedy starring Robin Williams, Mandy Moore and John Krasinski.

The plot was really simple: A couple decided to get married and the Reverend asked them to finish a course before they walk down the aisle. The marriage course entails not having sex until they are married, attending group counseling sessions with other married couples, one on one sessions and the like.

I had fun watching this movie not only because its funny but because it shows the realities of marriage and what it should be about. Are you in it for the right reasons? How well do you know and trust your partner (Can you drive blindfolded and he will be the one whose going to give you instructions? -scary really) How well do you communicate to him? Are you able to speak up your mind with no holds barred?

I'm not getting married anytime soon but it's one of those movies that are entertaining and would make you say, I'll keep these things in mind.

Weekend Blues

Even if I have not read the book that was highly recommended by Anton (Why Zebra Don't Get Ulcer), I think I am understanding the whole idea of it already by experience. According to Anton, it explains how we have little control of what we feel sometimes.

True enough, I think there are emotions that we simply can't control no matter how rational, logical or mature you are. My experience is a good example; I'm getting sick of a certain relationship. As much as I know why she acts in a certain way (don't want to elaborate further) I can't help but resent the idea that he is so concern of her. He has this big heart towards her - he cares for her, comfort her, lift her up when her spirit is low, gives her attention and love her, but somehow she still manage to ignore him. WTF!

He worries about her too much and without me noticing it, I was resenting it and at the same time, denying and pushing aside what I really felt. Slowly it takes it toll on me and the mere mention of her name can make me lose my appetite. And for a moment I entertain the thought of being a damsel in distress so that I will get people around me to worry also (simply ridiculous).

So what do you do when you feel like bursting? You understand both sides but somehow can't help it. Rule #1 in Counseling: Own your feelings. By owning what I feel, I need not only admit it to myself that I was jealous but I also need to admit it to someone else to get it off my chest. This is where best friends comes in handy (hehe). Talk to Sedneth was what I did (although I would have come over to her place if not for the rain). She knocks home very valid points. One, I need to tell Anton what I felt (I know I have to, he is clueless and he doesn't need a cold shoulder from me because in the first place, he doesn't know what's wrong). I can't expect someone to read my mind especially we have the Pacific ocean between us. Communication. I need to communicate to Anton no matter how petty and small the matter is.

I think Sed was worried for a moment since I was entertaining irrational thoughts, very irrational ones (I was willing to give it all up since she is always in the picture, I started asking if this is all worth it, if all the heartaches and troubles worth it, argggghhhh, there goes my immaturity and my selfishness). Love is a gamble, a constant work and if I want to make this work I had to do my share. I'm such a coward, I was already contemplating of backing out, thinking I'll be better of that way without any consideration of some sort with the person involve (If I have the 4 girls in front of me - they would have drown me alive already).

After talking to Sed, I slept, followed what she instructed me to do. Eat my early dinner, went to church, watch a Filipino love story movie (My Big Love), a comedy show (Banana Split), a movie entitled "The Condemned" and two documentary shows from BBC (80 Treasures and Daylight Robbery). By the time I finished all this, it was already early morning but since I'm not sleepy yet - I ended up reading and finishing two books.

Even after doing all this, I still have a heavy heart. But I felt someone splash a cold ice on me when I realize that I had a text message from Anton, saying that he missed me and he loves me. My phone was in complete neglect and in silent mode all day after I talked to Sed that I did not noticed his message. When I was reading it this morning, I turned to face my mom and asked, what was I thinking? She smiled and give a look and said - you better reply to him.

I ended up telling Anton everything, after all, he deserves to know. And to those, immature brats like me, don't do what I just did. It pays off to tell your worries (after all they might be pointless and baseless) but no matter how petty it is, communicate. Sometimes you just have to speak your mind. You may not have a good reason for your actions now (you might just be in denial) but for sure, getting it off and talking about it is a much better option than entertaining irrational thoughts.

L*ch*

Sorry sa mga indi ka inchindi sang Hiligaynon pero ma vent ko ya sa language nga mas comfortable ko.

Nainit ko kung amo ni ang na feel ko, ara bala nga gina try mo i contain ang isa ka butang pero indi mo ma help ang imo self kag ga resent ka still. L*ch* gid ni ya nga feeling, I don't like this! Kabalo ko syempre ko kung nga-a kag sin-o ang reason nga-a ga amo ko ni but I'm reaching to a point nga indi na lang ko maghambal kay natak-an ko and that is dangerous.

Basta amo na ah. Indi na ko mag elaborate. Itulog ko na lang ni kay para mag bugtaw ko ma okay na ko. If indi man ko dyapon okay after ko nag tulog kag nag pakalma sang akon nga ulo - then may problema gid somewhere. Bal-an ta lang na sa huyop sang hangin ah.

Anyway, I'm getting sick of this vicious cycle at the end of the day, ako kag ang akon man lang gid kaugalingon ya ang akon masalingan. Na learn ko na before nga indi magsalig sang tanan tanan sa isa ka tawo. Self preservation kumbaga. Ok, tapos na ko rant. Ipalayo ko anay ang akon self sa mga tawo nga ga stress sa akon kay basi ma erupt lang ko bala haw, budlay na.

What will your word for 2009 be?

That was the question raised by Ala Paredes in one of her blogs. So I thought, why not answer it since it's really a good question that I think every person should answer.

What will my word for 2009 will be? There would be two words. Change and Slow. They seemed contradictory but I think they complement each other. I want change comes 2009, it's high time I do that. But I want to take it slow - not be hasty and make sure that I know what I'm getting into. Although I have my fears but as my boyfriend would have it, I still need to take into the cold pool of water (Sweetie, did I get that analogy of yours right?). But a little precaution is a must. I can't simply be hasty at all and rush things up - it does not work that way.

So there, that's my word for 2009. What would be yours?

Blog Hopping

I hate being in day shift and a lot may give me that raised brow but I think the hours are longer (I know that the clock that ticks in the morning is the same clock that ticks at night - but still). After spending long hours talking to my boyfriend when he gets home, I still find myself with so much time in hand.

After fixing my desk and getting it ready for the next day, instead of going to those social networks there is one thing that I love doing now - that is blog hopping. I loved to read and at some point in my life I have neglected that passion of mine. I was so busy and tired with school that the only thing I read are journals so that I make that Psychology paper or Chapters in Marketing books so that I can answer that quiz or term exams. Hey, don't get me wrong - reading hard books are good since they are factual but I also need to read some fictions to fuel my imagination.

So now, blog hopping is what I do during those idle time. Reading about people's experiences, their perceptions, realizations and point of views on stuff can be enlightening. Some blogs makes me laugh, others makes me question my own views, while others affirm my stance. So yeah, if being in the morning shift will give me more time to read (by the way, I also have some books that I can carry with me now, hehe, my resolution for the year) - I'll gladly take it.

Unwritten

Just I was thinking about my plans and what not - this song came to mind...

I am unwritten, can’t read my mind, I’m undefined
I’m just beginning, the pen’s in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We’ve been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can’t live that way

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I guess it's a reminder for a young soul like me. There are still so much out there that I need to see for myself. My future is still unwritten and I have a lifetime to fill it with stories about my heartaches, my achievements, my desires, my aspirations, my failures, my little victories, my struggles. I'm well aware of the expectations that people have on me but no, I will have to live my life the way I want it to be and no one should dictate it If I have to break tradition, social norms and rules - so be it. After all, as the only poem that I ever memorize has it - I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul.

Here Comes 2009

I'm big on planning goals and there's no perfect way to start the year but by setting new goals; may it be short term goals or long term ones. So after all the festivities and the noise has died down, instead of sleeping right away, I took my little notebook and check if I was able to accomplish the things that I wanted to do for 2008 and started scribbling new ones for 2009.

Career: Get a new job and go back to school for post studies
Family: We're moving to our new house (so that's almost accomplished)
Start a small business (I know Irene wanted this so badly already)

I wanted to reward myself this year as well so I'm planning for my big vacation. Where? - I have a country in mind, somewhere where I can stay under the heat of the sun and enjoy my lazy afternoon with a good read.. can't wait.

I'm optimistic that this year will be a good year and a year of major changes. Although I have my apprehensions, I need to be proactive in looking for my niche, career wise. Ah, changes - I know most people hate them, resent them but do we have a choice? No we don't, after all it's the only thing that is constant. I hope I make the right decisions along the way. With or without the girls, I'm moving.