Gone Are The Days

REPOST: FRIDAY, JANUARY 14, 2011

Gone are the days when all we have to worry is our assignments, term papers and upcoming exam. Gone are the days when all we have to worry is where to eat for lunch. Gone are the days when everything was simple and are made simple for you by parents, teachers and friends.

The dad of one my best friends had an unfortunate accident and while riding the cab from the hospital, S and I can't help but sigh and think about the old simple days and come to terms with the fact that indeed we have all grow up. We are now adults with responsibilities on our shoulder and there are actually people depending on us. We know how far we have gone yet the realization can be overwhelming at times and you can only sit and hope that the future will be good to you.

Walk Away While You Can

REPOST: WEDNESDAY, JANUARY 12, 2011

It is painful enough for your love to be not reciprocated worst being lied to. That cuts like a knife for sure although I haven't personally experienced being cheated on. 

But I'm still having a hard time understanding why some women can't walk away when all the signs have been right under their nose from the very start. If your partner is a pathological liar why would you keep coming back? 

Respect is as important to faith and love in a relationship. If you can sense that the man  you are having conversation with doesn't have an ounce of respect to you then I suggest  you look somewhere else. That relationship is doomed and it will only be a matter of time till you suffocate each other with the doubts that you have at the back of your head.

Second, if being disrespectful to you is not enough would you not walk away while you can if the guy has a terrible temper and starts yelling and screaming when the mood suits him? The kind who lash at you when he is mad and blame you after for every foolish thing he did while at the peak of his emotion? Whoa. That sounds like a big trouble to me. 

True it's human nature to be mad. It is a natural emotion that one feels when provoke but it is very immature to blame your partner afterwards. It is your emotion, own it and as such, also own the consequences that comes after.

Women should look for this signs early on in the relationship. Don't wish for the guy to change for you. It may happen but that is a long shot and better yet, don't count on it. Put your energy somewhere else rather than cultivating feelings for someone who will make you feel bad about yourself. Who is an emotional vampire. It is seriously not worth your precious time.

First Weekend of January

REPOST: MONDAY, JANUARY 10, 2011

I had a stressful Thursday last week. H got into an accident and he dislocated his arm. I was so worried of him, good thing he has no broken bones and will be out of sling after 2 weeks. But even that is not comforting to know. I know how hard it will be for him to do errands even the most mundane one. And again, I can only hope that at this time I was with him to make him feel a bit better.

Even if he was on sling, we spend a good amount of time together. We played games and it was so much fun. It is safe to say now that I do better with foreign history but not I suck big time at Philippine history quizzes (I know, shame on me lol). If I don't do well on foreign questions at least I have an excuse but boy, I don't have any single excuse for not knowing how many Philippine provinces are there (Answer: 79). But we had fun and that is all that matter. 

I was also able to finish the book, Sweet Revenge by Nora Roberts. I was a couple of chapters away last Friday and had to finished it right away when I got home from work, Saturday morning. I  have started  reading new one just this morning,  Brazen Virtue by the same author. Thank you to my friend, Aira, for letting me lend the books. 

I had a very good weekend all in all. I was productive to say the least =)

What Shall I Do?

REPOST: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

I was wondering what shall I do when I get home from work today. Turns out there is a lot to do and too little time to finish everything. I started digging out my cabinet and fixed my clothes that are out of place. I started putting away blouses that are too small for me already. My cabinet seemed full only because there are a couple of things that shouldn't be there anymore (hehe). I should have put them away a long time ago. 

I also started reading a new book by Nora Roberts, Sweet Revenge. I just finished reading a novel last Sunday and already starting a new one (big grin). I am so proud of myself. I am reading more these days which I didn't do previously. I guess, I'm starting my year right after all. I just need to get  back to exercise to shed off some weights soon.

The Word for 2011

REPost: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

Every start of the year, I pick out a word or two that will be my guide all throughout. This year, I have chosen the word 'save'. Just a month ago, I have talked how bad I was financially but before the year end, I was able to gain some leverage. 

It is a must that I save and not depend on H (my hubby) everytime I am in trouble. He is always willing to lend a hand and he always look out for me and my family but it still good if I can take care of myself at least. He is well aware of the responsibility I have in my shoulder but I cannot be totally dependent with him since he is also saving for our life together. 

So, for the first quarter of the year I must not indulge in shopping new bags, shoes or clothes. Time to discipline myself and look out for my expenses. Time to live on a budget and not splurge even if I can. Until such a time that I feel confident about my finances, no purchases should be made. Good luck to me!

The Year It Has Been, 2010

REPost: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

I thought I was going to get hitched last year. I thought I was going to moved to a far away land. I thought I was going to get pregnant. I thought I was going to build a family, start a new life with the man I love. But I thought wrong. It was just, "I' thought. See the operative word is "I". I know he wants the same thing that I do. We daydream of our days together, of our lives together but I often wonder when will be all that realized. 

It's been 2 years and though we have been very happy I couldn't keep but ask for more. It's just my nature I guess. I've been dying to build family and be with him for good but it's like I've been put on a halt. I guess, this is life teaching me a lesson that I will not always get what I want when I want. So, for a change I'll put behind the talks of settling down and babies and what not this year. He will come around when he feels it is the right time. For the time being and for a change this year, I'm gonna go out and have some fun.

Pardon my French

Repost: TUESDAY, JANUARY 4, 2011

I don't know what with this girl. She thinks it is nice and classy to be sleeping with one man to another. Since the time I met her, she incessantly talks about the men in her life.Well either that or the brands of her expensive shoes, branded bags, designer clothes and what not. I sometimes humor myself  and tell her that she should label the guys she is sleeping with as Mr. Gucci, Mr. Louis Vuitton or Mr. Prada. 

I mean how low can you get? This men are married and some have kids yet you willingly subject yourself as a mistress and an accomplice for cheating on their wives and you call it forbidden love? Forbidden my ass. The fact stands that you know from the very start their status in life. You could have walked away but that was never the case. I guess it was never in you to do a right thing. 

There is no class in this act, never will. And I can only  hope you snap out of this before things get messy. I pity you honestly but you are too old not to know the difference of what is wrong from what is not. This are deliberate actions and you have full knowledge of things that you are doing. At the end of the day, I think you also dreamed of more than being a ho of someone. Unless you do something about it, you will be just that, a ho.