Could It Be My Hormones?

Studies show that women tends to be emotional days before their monthly period, usually 10 days before the said time. Needless to say that I blaming whatever I'm feeling right now to hormonal change but could it really be just my hormones talking?

I don't know how it came about but I woke up with a very heavy heart. This is one of those days when I feel insecure and I'm not getting the assurance that I need to get rid of this irrational thoughts away and straighten up my illogical and non-sense thinking. It would be unfair to expect my boyfriend to read through my mind cause I know he can't especially when all he can do is read my responses and bear with the awkward silences. I also don't want to start talking cause I might say something really really stupid hence, the best solution is to keep my mouth shut.

Going back to the point in case, why then do I feel insecure then? I've learn my lesson before, promulgation of eternal promises will not do any relationship good...you'll just end up frustrated, disappointed, caged, obliged to stay in a relationship that is doomed to fail and tons and tons of heartache. But ironically, these are the kind of promises (let's keep it to a minimum; let's not exaggerate it) that keeps you to hang in there when you feel extremely low. Fight or flight. In my case, flight. Saves me a lot of trouble and heartache. You can say that I'm being a coward, yes, in a way I am but I don't call it cowardliness, I call it self preservation. For once, I can say that I have lower down my guard, let my feelings really show and it's scaring the hell out of me. It's that illusion that I can control everything when truth of the matter is, I can't control everything. Ahhh. I hate it when I start over thinking things, I'm making my own life complicated (just great).

Come what may =).